I feel calm even in the midst of the busiest time I've had in a long while.
I've been busy networking to try and get more consulting work, coordinating my dad's cancer treatment and driving the 80 miles there and back it takes to get to his nursing home, interviewing and exploring full-time job opportunities, reconnecting with work colleagues I haven't seen in years, taking my temperature every morning in an effort to figure out the best time to try and impregnate my almost 43-year-old body, sticking to my new Weight Watcher's eating regime (which has resulted in 4.5 lbs GONE in two weeks) and taking care of my husband, dog, cats, home. It's all happening. All at once.
If that wasn't enough, I've read two books in the past couple of weeks, remembered to send birthday cards to my old English aunties and laughed a lot with Craze along the way.
My networking has actually resulted in some actual, dare I say it, work! So, I've had projects to work on and money coming in. I even got a call yesterday for a long-term project that could be really lucrative. Just what we need at just the right time.
In the past, I might have been crazed at all this activity. But oddly and thankfully, none of it seems to weigh too heavily on my shoulders. I feel light and happy. "Two and a half years of therapy kicking in?" you might ask and you might be right.
Nothing in my life is still perfect, yet it seems right. I'm ok with the imperfections and feel less angst ridden than I can practically ever remember being.
I am not rich or especially beautiful but I am especially happy just to have the life that I have. In the words of a song from my favorite movie (Scrooge with Albert Finney), "Life is fine, life is good, 'specially mine which is just as it should be."